General Rant

(This is just a general rant. A rant about everything that's bothering me [almost]. If it's not really "ranting" enough PLEASE tell me and I'll try to be more ranting next time.)

I.

Miss.

Coal.

Blazings.

(He's a spy and he's been deported to another town called Brightwood to spy for a while.)

Is it too much to expect him to send a letter to the poor kachinas stuck in the Palace with nothing to do except dance for the Fire Lord who is always ungrateful and in a bad mood?

*looks horrified*

Did I just say that?

The Fire Lord isn't really ungrateful or in a bad mood, he's just under tremendous pressures lately. I'm guessing. No one will tell the poor ignorant kachinas anything. We're just here to dance and look good and keep quiet and out of the way.

*looks horrified again*

Not that I don't love being a kachina. I really, truly, honestly do. Dancing is the most wonderful thing in the world. It fills me with adrenaline, joy and helps me think deeper thoughts. Moving with the music is like feeling my heart beat. The feeling when I preform a difficult move is like no other. I love being a kachina. I do. I DO.

I just don't like dancing for the Fire Lord.

No, I do. I love the Fire Lord. I guess. I don't know. He just hasn't been very lovable lately. Maybe I would understand if someone would tell us things, but no one tells us anything around here. I hate being uninformed. At least Coal would tell us the general idea of what was going on.I miss him so much. So much. It's the first thing I realize when I wake up in the morning, the last thing I think about at night. We haven't seen him since the middle of August. That's three weeks! You can't possibly understand how awful it is without him. It's terrible.

And NO, I am NOT in love with him. I am not.

I know this post wasn't anything new, but I felt like I ought to say something.

If you read this, do you have any advice? How can I stop missing Coal so much? How can I get to accept the fact that we're just kachinas for the Fire Lord and no one tells us anything?

(I don't think I will ever accept that, actually. Never. I don't think I even want to try. We're fire fairies, too, even though we're just slave kachinas! We have just as much right to speak up as anyone! Don't we? Do we?)

Prayer to the Flying Spaghetti Monster

Flying Spaghetti Monster, Blessed be your Noodly Appendage. It would appear, in the course of human events, I have been unfortunately been placed between two idiots, and nonbelievers at that. I have only praise, not blame, for you. You must have been overseeing much more important things that only you are to know about.* As a faithful Pastafarian, and one who aspires to become one of His chosen people, the Pirate, I beseech you; Might you use your powers as the Spaghedeity to move my locker to a more convenient location. i.e. Close to my classes, far away from idiots. Whatever the outcome, I will take it to be part of your divine plan, and celebrate your most holy of holidays with no lesser joy. September 19th, talk like a pirate day. What better way to find the Flying Spaghetti Monster.

RAmen

*What happens in Pastafarian Heaven, stays in Pastafarian Heaven.

8th grade rant.

So pretty much, I have two complaints.
1. My locker number is 572. Elle's is 571. Soraya's is 574. And apparently, I share my locker space with about twenty sycophants to both of them. And strangely enough, those people aren't the type that move when you mumble an apology and ask to get to your locker. Oh, and Elle isn't yet done with groaning and shouting in my ear about how she has to have a locker next to me, because obviously I'm thrilled!
2. My bus is so fricking crowded! That pretty much speaks for itself, but it doesn't communicate how bad it is. Ok, done ranting for now.

Edit: Wow, I was looking at this page, and it turns out I can edit other people's posts because I am the admin. I wonder how that works.

Ideas, Please!

Things have been both usual, and unusual of late.

Sparkle has been too energetic and irritating, Flicker has been spineless and irritating, Comet has been basically invisible, Flare has been getting louder and louder, Firefly has been fine, and I've been restless and paranoid about being the perfect kachina. Basically, things have been perfectly normal.

The Fire Lord told us he fears we've been growing slack in our kachina practices and he wants to see improvement within the week. Never mind that we're the best kachinas out there (as far as we know), he wants better. How can we get better than the best? We're all in perfect shape and look it, too, except Sparkle, who always looks like she could be thinner. Just the other day we took a run around the Palace and through the village. We didn't tire out but once and that was because we were so thirsty. The weather has been unbearably hot lately.

I just don't know what the Fire Lord wants. He's been so irritable lately it doesn't seem like anything will please him! We tried making our style a little different, more like the Julese, but he didn't like that. We tried having new costumes with different colors made, he didn't like that. We tried adding a singer to the music, he didn't like that. We tried adding some new moves, he didn't like that either. He doesn't like anything, yet he insists on "better"! What *is* better? Please, share your ideas!!

Sparkanniversaries

Coal's sparkanniversary is in 12 days. *smiles* We kachinas are trying to think of a way to celebrate it. I don't know if the Fire Lord will do anything special for him. Sometimes the Fire Lord will honor his slaves' sparkanniversaries if they're a favorite of his, or if they've done something noteworthy lately.

The Fire Lord usually celebrates Coal's sparkanniversary for both reasons. Coal is so ridiculously charismatic that everyone likes him, and he's almost always uncovering something secret for the Fire Lord.On the other hand, the Fire Lord has been in a funny mood ever since the execution a week or so ago. No one knows why he had the peasant executed except for a few important slaves. The Fire Lord has been edgy and distracted this week. He beat Flicker yesterday, and Flare the day before. I'm more frightened of him than ever. I don't know what I'll do to set him off.

Back on the lighter note, if you have any suggestions of ways to celebrate Coal's special day on the 14th, let me know!


P.S. Look at this link! The boy with darker skin looks exactly like Coal. Just look until you find him.
1. http://crossroadsnc.com/photoalbum/2006/carowinds06/

Is it paranoia if it's true?

I think some of my friends plan to kill me. They probably will kill me sooner, now that I'm on to them. Friends, please don't kill me. I am enjoying life somewhat at the moment, and killing me could impede my happiness. Is that actually a rant?

So, how are you/what's up?

What, honestly, is the point of asking this if 1) You don't really care about the answer and 2) The other person will just say "nm" and go back to ignoring you?

Sure, it's polite, and sometimes it's nice to be asked. But most of the time when you give an actual answer, like, "I'm really tired" or "About to have lunch, you?" The conversation just stops there. Can't anyone come up with something more creative to ask, or at least respond to your reply? I hate when I put a lot of effort into keeping a conversation going and just get one word answers.

Oh, wonderful. Someone just sent me a message on Facebook asking "why r u so weird". You'd think they'd have something better to do at fricking 1 am... like uh, sleeping? I don't really know quite how to feel about this. On one hand, I admire her for being straight up about it instead of just gossiping about me. On the other hand, it's just completely rude.

Also -- wait, she just replied. "are u bi". How creative, man. People are stupid.

By the way, Ember, I have been reading your posts. Sorry for not commenting, and sorry that this is my first post since this blog started... I just didn't know what to talk about until now. Hope I did this right.