I.
Miss.
Coal.
Blazings.
(He's a spy and he's been deported to another town called Brightwood to spy for a while.)
Is it too much to expect him to send a letter to the poor kachinas stuck in the Palace with nothing to do except dance for the Fire Lord who is always ungrateful and in a bad mood?
*looks horrified*
Did I just say that?
The Fire Lord isn't really ungrateful or in a bad mood, he's just under tremendous pressures lately. I'm guessing. No one will tell the poor ignorant kachinas anything. We're just here to dance and look good and keep quiet and out of the way.
*looks horrified again*
Not that I don't love being a kachina. I really, truly, honestly do. Dancing is the most wonderful thing in the world. It fills me with adrenaline, joy and helps me think deeper thoughts. Moving with the music is like feeling my heart beat. The feeling when I preform a difficult move is like no other. I love being a kachina. I do. I DO.
I just don't like dancing for the Fire Lord.
No, I do. I love the Fire Lord. I guess. I don't know. He just hasn't been very lovable lately. Maybe I would understand if someone would tell us things, but no one tells us anything around here. I hate being uninformed. At least Coal would tell us the general idea of what was going on.I miss him so much. So much. It's the first thing I realize when I wake up in the morning, the last thing I think about at night. We haven't seen him since the middle of August. That's three weeks! You can't possibly understand how awful it is without him. It's terrible.
And NO, I am NOT in love with him. I am not.
I know this post wasn't anything new, but I felt like I ought to say something.
If you read this, do you have any advice? How can I stop missing Coal so much? How can I get to accept the fact that we're just kachinas for the Fire Lord and no one tells us anything?
(I don't think I will ever accept that, actually. Never. I don't think I even want to try. We're fire fairies, too, even though we're just slave kachinas! We have just as much right to speak up as anyone! Don't we? Do we?)
Wow, that is a lot of bad news. On the other hand, it isn't decidedly negative. If the Fire Lord has been irritable and impatient, maybe he is concerned about how Coal is doing. If the Fire Lord is concerned about him, then he will probably be getting lots of protection. And maybe Coal will return with valuable intelligence that will put the Fire Lord in a better mood. If you feel you are being treated unfairly, then you should definitely stand up for yourself. No advice on how to stop missing Coal, except that he is probably doing something really important for Furier, and maybe even all of Jeolotoe, Or not, I don't really give good advice. Sorry to hear about stuff over there, but it will probably get better eventually,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry so much is going wrong! I have nothing to add to what Andrew said, though. Hmm...missing Coal...honestly, I don't know that there's a lot you can do. Just wait it out, and keep in mind what Andrew said.
ReplyDelete~Kendra
Andrew: Goodness! You're so good at thinking about things from all angles! I never would have thought of that. Thank you so much! You're so right. Coal probably *is* being protected very well, and his news very well *could* put the Fire Lord in a better mood! I think you're very good at giving advice, actually. Thank you so much for commenting!!
ReplyDeleteKendra: I suppose that is about all I can do. Thank you for your advice!
~Ember